i have to read a book called Comfort Women, by Yoshimi Yoshiaki, for my Asian Studies course on Japanese-Korean relations. this is a very sensitive topic to me, because when i was much younger, i actually watched a movie that was based on the Nanjing Massacre. although the images from the movie are blurred, i can still remember what i saw in the movie and how many nights of nightmares i had after that. this has always been why i refuse to watch war-time movies. but the point is, reading this book is not only forcing me to re-address something i have tried to hard to avoid, but at the same time, making me learn why this atrocity happened.
although i have come across the issue in my studies as an IR student, this is the first time where it is directly thrown at my face, with factual documents from the Japanese officials and the comfort women that survived the pain they had to endure during those times. now, i really do understand why this is such an important issue, why Japan really needs to apologize for what they have done. in the past, i have wondered if the Koreans and the Chinese had made a bigger deal out of the issue than necessary. but now, after reading this, i think the Japanese ought to admit to what they have done.
this is an act violating against human rights, an act destroying human dignity.
as i type this, i can tell you that i am very frustrated right now.
when i was still in highschool, i always wanted to be different, to stand out… i’ve done outrageous things in order to succeed, but in the end, was it worthwhile? i don’t think so. as a result of trying to be someone different, i’ve wasted time in trying to find myself, to know myself better. i agree that testing waters is good, i agree that being unique is oh-so-cool, but i don’t think we have to try to be different. we are all different in one way or another.
and i don’t know why i just wanted to say this…
i think it’s because i am trying to procrastinate.
even though i’m not religious (at all), i am going to go on lent (because juhae made me). so, for the next 40 days, i will not curse (in chinese and/or english). if i do, i will have to spend a day without dbsg (no watching or listening or looking).
this is gona be soooo hard!!
so, as of February 22, 2007; 12:00am PST… i will stop cussing.
HAHAH FUCK! [it’s still 11:59pm]
first off, i want to thank everyone that remembered my birthday. *hearts* birthday wishes from various people living in various places definitely warmed my heart and made it all fuzzy inside. thank you .
but on to birthday wishes. so, ever since the great ‘invention’ of facebook, everyone has been reconnected to one another via the cyberspace. people you rarely talk to, people you don’t even see… are now miraculously in your network as your friend. and since your birthday is publicized through their member feed [or whatever it’s called], everyone knows that it’s your birthday. that you are a year older.
to get to the point, although i do love getting birthday wishes [because hey, you can only celebrate your birthday once a year], i really don’t expect people that i haven’t talked to in say years, or people that have been talking behind my back for say even more years, to actually say ‘happy birthday’ to me. i thought that with highschool behind our backs, we no longer need to live in a world of “OHHH~~ I AM SOO HAPPY FOR YOU!” that sort of deal. but nonetheless, i am thankful that i am still important enough for them to actually write a message on my wall.
now, i am a year older… and the pressure’s on. it’s time for job hunting.
at the same time, it is also a time to sit back and think about what makes my life happy. and i realized it’s nothing but simplicity.
luxury is great, in fact, awesome, but just how much can one have until they are fulfilled? money can never fulfill one’s desires. and upon realizing that, i realized that it’s best i follow a path that will guide me to simple happiness. to do what i like, to love what i want.
and as i am now 22 19 in canada, 21 in the states, i shall try to be a little wiser, a little better, and a little more… ordinary.
a little originality wouldn’t hurt you, really. i know that everything is recycled and reused, but you sort of need to pick the right timing. GoodEMG really needs to smarten up a little if they want Battle to be a success. Making the boys wear animal suits JUST after DBSG and their Balloon costume is only going to draw comparisons between the two groups and anger from Cassieopeia [typo?]. Let’s see…
vs. 
I would have to say that, the pink fluff is much cuter. [with bias, of course] anyway, my point is that Battle still has a long way to go and GoodEMG better come up with smarter marketing tactics.
*fluffs*
i want to eat. i want to sleep.
i need a break. maybe i will go home later and finish watching my DBSG concert, so that i can make pretty caps for juhae. class is so boring right now. public policy. blah blah. it’s pretty much common sense. people in my class is too smart as well. bleck. *grumbles* oh, that be my tummy. i want food!!!!!
hmm, what to eat?
blah. i need a break already!
doo di doo. *leaves fluff*
MY CONCERT FINALLY CAME!!!!!
Cannot express my excitement. I’ve just finished watching it and I must say I am really impressed with the boys live singing ability. But, that’s nothing new. A disappointment is that they didn’t sing live for their dance numbers [which is not their fault but SM’s] and another slight frown in that Jaejoong didn’t get to dance because of his knee. I must say they kept the concert quite lively, and they had good sequences of songs. But the boys will have to learn from their seniors how to work a crowd even better. The encore lacked the fun-ness that ji-oh-di and shinhwa has incorporated in the past. I think their coming concert will be better, given how the boys are now revealing more about themselves.
One note I must make is that, Yoochun can be such a flirt. He is probably the one that did most of the fan service. Mmph.
Waiting for Shinhwa’s State of the Art Concert now. Should be receiving it next week.
Welcome to vifzky’s blogging home. I am going to try and keep the writing to a minimum level and post more pictures instead. But given how I am in class right now and I am lazy to upload any pictures, I will rant or spazz. Which should I do? Maybe I will spazz.
DBSG DESKTOP CALENDAR CAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And I am waiting now for my Rising Sun Concert and my State of the Art Concert. After watching the two, I will give you guys a commentary on what I think about the two concerts. I would hate to compare DBSG and Shinhwa, but I think I should do a commentary for myself and for you.
Speaking of which, I am bored. I am waiting for break. Freaking 3 hour lecture on Japan-Korea relationship. I want to go home to my computer so that I can watch DBSG.
Yes, I know. I am addicted. But … it’s not my fault that these guys are not only good looking but very talented as well. ._.;
And I am forcing Aly to change my theme right now. I love her. 
Yay!!!
Maybe I should rant some more. I am looking forward to Kyesang’s new drama. Loveholic will be good. I am not a big fan of melodrama though, so … but anyway. I AM EXCITED!!!! This weekend!!! yay.
Anyway. I fluff now!